Past and present forming a circle
It is a Sunday, I am in a recliner, taking a break, laptop in my lap, and two little dogs squeezing in tight. So this has to be a slow write, already my elbows are jammed in trying to avoid the dogs.
And to boot the battery is low.
Upon reviewing the blog archive's, I am reminded that I have talked the emotional clearing thing in a circle , and what is coming up now is the last remnants of pieces I had held on to.
This year with things on the move, weather, polarities, and humanity, things will still come around again. The worst of our past, our fears, our sufferings as a race of humans.
Facebook is interesting, on it I see all kinds of crying out about the things I think we are all afraid will re-surface to block us in our growth as star being. I hardly think too many people see it that way when they are on Facebook, but it is there all the same.
Slavery, discrimination, violence, mistreatment of animals, kids, poisoning of our food crops, the planet, our water, ourselves. It is as if the expanded awareness of how small and fragile our planet and how fragile we are has truly come to the surface. We are just beginning to mature.
And yet, there is still the other side of it. those who feel totally opposite. The polarity of views is strong. The Earth feels this, if we think we are not part of the sentience of this planet, think again.
All is energy, remember that. Our thoughts, emotions, actions are at this point in time a deluge of energy into the energetic field of Earth, she feels and reacts also. Add to this the pull of a very
amped up sun, getting hit with a huge gravitational yank from the galactic center, and the sun omitting a whole lot more EM outbursts. Which does affect us on the mental and emotional level.
The excercises I lay out to strenghten, center and clear out in the first part of my blog chapters will
help. Don't treat the sun as your enemy. Every chance you get, do the very first one I lay out in sunshine. Otherwise keep them moving inside with some calmness. The object is to take charge of your own self on the energetic level.
I relate a lot of what happened over the last ten years as I have kept moving through things, instead of reacting in negative ways, I own the anger, understand what I am learning from my feelings and trying to go on with a mindful manner in treating people.
I have learned things from other people, some are writers, maybe New Age, maybe not.
And I see a lot of truly beautiful things on Facebook too, inspiring us to be better through it all.
I am entitled to look at my feelings and not make small of them. They are a tool that I am learning with. I have learned to release them as I move on . And I have learned that there are some
situations that I should avoid, I have forgiven and released the pain from them, but also haved learned to not invite another similar incident by diving back into exactly the same role I played before.
And as you go through this opening up and moving out old energetic patterns of thought and behavior, you see it like a map, someone else just keeps repeating something that hurt you, you
do a detour, and turn into another road. If they become a roadblock for you, then you back up and find a new route. At the end of that particular trip, you can ponder on why this was.
But the big thing is, You didn't crash into them, and become entangled in the car wreck of
repeating old behavior with that person. You have had to learn to detach and stay mindful.
They have not, but not your lesson.
I have had this man friend in my life, who I am going to call a energy vampire. I was fond of him, but over the 3 decades my husband and I have known him , he simply sets a stage for himself and it always starts like this.
He is humbled and appears very vulnerable, out of a bad relationship, hard times financially, whatever has become his way in. He is all about what ever you are interested in also, that seems to be a big lure.
My car wreck with him is I begin to feel sorry that his life has brought him down. But at the same time he seems to be more humble, human and truthful. So I think maybe he has changed.
I won't go into details of all the times he has gone and not really finished up something he was working on for my husband and I, as we have had him do work for us, then gone off and not finished. Or simply stood us up, come, talked over plans, given all the impression he was ready to get going on the job, then nothing. Evasive, not responding, wierdness setting in. And we eventually just stop trying to find out the reason why, and just stop trying period.
In one instant, I did the rest of the job myself. In another, the husband and I have got someone else to get started on the job. Each time a car wreck of our relationship, some years will go by before we see him again. He will owe my husband money, so he wants to do a trade of labor.
If it were only us, but he does this to everyone he is a "friend" to. Others, he seems to follow thru and finish. These are strangers or business's. But for friends, he cycles through them and the end result is always the same. Carwreck. Complete with lots of excuses or not. And it starts off as a trade. And he will speak badly of who ever it is he has done this too, we have gotten to hear him a time or two. Seems like he loves to do exactly this while he is not doing his end of the bargain.
I am avoiding the car wreck, and have pointed out to the spouse, he needs to to.
Because it is an energy draining game this man plays with his "friends/victims" he finds fulfilling. That and the coming back around and laying down the snare for next time. Working it so he is once again to repeat the behavior with the same people, only not all at once. We are on the out list, and hopefully will not have to deal with him for a few years. That is how long he will take to play his game again. And it won't happen again, I will not be that damned stupid.
Odd to lay this out, but there are people who live on the chaos they bring, the rush of working people to get to some point, and the ego bump they get from feeling in control by ignoring the people
they made a commitment to do some sort of project to. It is a continual game they play.
Or they will stir up some kind of drama, or what have you. Once you understand your part in what was going on, you start to feel detached. Oh yeah, I still wonder what the hell brought something on, but I cycle it through faster, and see my reaction is more about moving it out, not shoving it down. I also am saying how I feel. So do I need to do it again? No .
So as we all stand here at this point in time, I read a posting on Facebook. It was about
learning to forgive another for hurting you, or letting you down, learning to let it go, learning to love them in a heartfelt way, but you don't have to hang out with them. And in a book on badly behaved people you have had to spend time with, it is okay to feel anger. Anger that the behavior has never changed towards you.
Then use the anger to work through the clearing each time, and move it out after you do the steps to see the roles and lessons you each play.
And review also. Why did you willingly go into another interaction, when each time you come out in a car wreck. Life is telling you something. Move on!! Love yourself enough to know when to leave it. Love them for the lesson on loving yourself.
Find new people who will bring a more positive energy into your life.
I know someone who is so not into negative energy, she keeps saying that. But in the end she repeats again and again the same interactions with people in her life. So each time, she has become very negative. I came to understand it is all she knows.
Subconciously she wants better, but she is drawn to what is familar. Which as humans, we all do in many ways. Our comfort zone.
But the part of seeing the things that hurt, enslave, destroy, our humanity & our ability to stay in a higher frequency on this planet is coming to a head. For all of us, to step out of it, look it over in a searching way and try to learn. We must do this first, integrate. See the bad, in ourselves, and then balance it, be mindful of it always and move in a new direction.
We aren't born to be one way or another, but we do come to learn certain behaviors we repeat. But they are not set in stone, and the lesson is learning it. We are doing each that at different
pace now.
Go to the past, look at it, learn from it, move past it and go forward.
And to boot the battery is low.
Upon reviewing the blog archive's, I am reminded that I have talked the emotional clearing thing in a circle , and what is coming up now is the last remnants of pieces I had held on to.
This year with things on the move, weather, polarities, and humanity, things will still come around again. The worst of our past, our fears, our sufferings as a race of humans.
Facebook is interesting, on it I see all kinds of crying out about the things I think we are all afraid will re-surface to block us in our growth as star being. I hardly think too many people see it that way when they are on Facebook, but it is there all the same.
Slavery, discrimination, violence, mistreatment of animals, kids, poisoning of our food crops, the planet, our water, ourselves. It is as if the expanded awareness of how small and fragile our planet and how fragile we are has truly come to the surface. We are just beginning to mature.
And yet, there is still the other side of it. those who feel totally opposite. The polarity of views is strong. The Earth feels this, if we think we are not part of the sentience of this planet, think again.
All is energy, remember that. Our thoughts, emotions, actions are at this point in time a deluge of energy into the energetic field of Earth, she feels and reacts also. Add to this the pull of a very
amped up sun, getting hit with a huge gravitational yank from the galactic center, and the sun omitting a whole lot more EM outbursts. Which does affect us on the mental and emotional level.
The excercises I lay out to strenghten, center and clear out in the first part of my blog chapters will
help. Don't treat the sun as your enemy. Every chance you get, do the very first one I lay out in sunshine. Otherwise keep them moving inside with some calmness. The object is to take charge of your own self on the energetic level.
I relate a lot of what happened over the last ten years as I have kept moving through things, instead of reacting in negative ways, I own the anger, understand what I am learning from my feelings and trying to go on with a mindful manner in treating people.
I have learned things from other people, some are writers, maybe New Age, maybe not.
And I see a lot of truly beautiful things on Facebook too, inspiring us to be better through it all.
I am entitled to look at my feelings and not make small of them. They are a tool that I am learning with. I have learned to release them as I move on . And I have learned that there are some
situations that I should avoid, I have forgiven and released the pain from them, but also haved learned to not invite another similar incident by diving back into exactly the same role I played before.
And as you go through this opening up and moving out old energetic patterns of thought and behavior, you see it like a map, someone else just keeps repeating something that hurt you, you
do a detour, and turn into another road. If they become a roadblock for you, then you back up and find a new route. At the end of that particular trip, you can ponder on why this was.
But the big thing is, You didn't crash into them, and become entangled in the car wreck of
repeating old behavior with that person. You have had to learn to detach and stay mindful.
They have not, but not your lesson.
I have had this man friend in my life, who I am going to call a energy vampire. I was fond of him, but over the 3 decades my husband and I have known him , he simply sets a stage for himself and it always starts like this.
He is humbled and appears very vulnerable, out of a bad relationship, hard times financially, whatever has become his way in. He is all about what ever you are interested in also, that seems to be a big lure.
My car wreck with him is I begin to feel sorry that his life has brought him down. But at the same time he seems to be more humble, human and truthful. So I think maybe he has changed.
I won't go into details of all the times he has gone and not really finished up something he was working on for my husband and I, as we have had him do work for us, then gone off and not finished. Or simply stood us up, come, talked over plans, given all the impression he was ready to get going on the job, then nothing. Evasive, not responding, wierdness setting in. And we eventually just stop trying to find out the reason why, and just stop trying period.
In one instant, I did the rest of the job myself. In another, the husband and I have got someone else to get started on the job. Each time a car wreck of our relationship, some years will go by before we see him again. He will owe my husband money, so he wants to do a trade of labor.
If it were only us, but he does this to everyone he is a "friend" to. Others, he seems to follow thru and finish. These are strangers or business's. But for friends, he cycles through them and the end result is always the same. Carwreck. Complete with lots of excuses or not. And it starts off as a trade. And he will speak badly of who ever it is he has done this too, we have gotten to hear him a time or two. Seems like he loves to do exactly this while he is not doing his end of the bargain.
I am avoiding the car wreck, and have pointed out to the spouse, he needs to to.
Because it is an energy draining game this man plays with his "friends/victims" he finds fulfilling. That and the coming back around and laying down the snare for next time. Working it so he is once again to repeat the behavior with the same people, only not all at once. We are on the out list, and hopefully will not have to deal with him for a few years. That is how long he will take to play his game again. And it won't happen again, I will not be that damned stupid.
Odd to lay this out, but there are people who live on the chaos they bring, the rush of working people to get to some point, and the ego bump they get from feeling in control by ignoring the people
they made a commitment to do some sort of project to. It is a continual game they play.
Or they will stir up some kind of drama, or what have you. Once you understand your part in what was going on, you start to feel detached. Oh yeah, I still wonder what the hell brought something on, but I cycle it through faster, and see my reaction is more about moving it out, not shoving it down. I also am saying how I feel. So do I need to do it again? No .
So as we all stand here at this point in time, I read a posting on Facebook. It was about
learning to forgive another for hurting you, or letting you down, learning to let it go, learning to love them in a heartfelt way, but you don't have to hang out with them. And in a book on badly behaved people you have had to spend time with, it is okay to feel anger. Anger that the behavior has never changed towards you.
Then use the anger to work through the clearing each time, and move it out after you do the steps to see the roles and lessons you each play.
And review also. Why did you willingly go into another interaction, when each time you come out in a car wreck. Life is telling you something. Move on!! Love yourself enough to know when to leave it. Love them for the lesson on loving yourself.
Find new people who will bring a more positive energy into your life.
I know someone who is so not into negative energy, she keeps saying that. But in the end she repeats again and again the same interactions with people in her life. So each time, she has become very negative. I came to understand it is all she knows.
Subconciously she wants better, but she is drawn to what is familar. Which as humans, we all do in many ways. Our comfort zone.
But the part of seeing the things that hurt, enslave, destroy, our humanity & our ability to stay in a higher frequency on this planet is coming to a head. For all of us, to step out of it, look it over in a searching way and try to learn. We must do this first, integrate. See the bad, in ourselves, and then balance it, be mindful of it always and move in a new direction.
We aren't born to be one way or another, but we do come to learn certain behaviors we repeat. But they are not set in stone, and the lesson is learning it. We are doing each that at different
pace now.
Go to the past, look at it, learn from it, move past it and go forward.
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