Having to review my own homework

The last posting I put up might have sounded somewhat harsh. And the whole time I was writing I wanted to keep going back and revise some things I had written about my friend who I stated was an energy vampire. I felt I was feeling too much unvented anger, and expressed it too harshly.

However, my guides stated that it should stand as it is. Learning to express emotions is extremely important. In this day of being either too nice, or the opposite, which occurs as often to most folks, it is crucial to be able to keep in touch with one's emotional state.

You know I will admit to feeling angry and being whimpy about it at the same time. Not saying what is on my mind, just trying to smooth out some situations untill I can detach myself out of it. Not terribly honest.

Keeping a journal on how you feel about things in your life is a good step. But learning to communicate with any one close to you on your emotions and feelings about them is most likely the hardest thing any of us need to do. I feel we humans live in fear of truly expressing our emotions honestly, untill they explode out of us, or implode inside us making us ill.

I have re-read my letter to this friend. Do I hate her? No, I do not. Am I uncomfortable about her remarks about other races, Jewish people, Gay people in public, you bet I am. I like to be able to talk about things like what was on Coast to Coast radio, how the ecomony is heading, gardening,chickens, dogs, etc.

But we have become dysfunctional in our relationship. I have allowed it to go on.
I am as much at fault. Trying to keep things smoothed out untill I could get away.

So as I have stated in the past, my homework. I have tried to think of how to put things on the table, and since she is mad at me already, I may take a while to think on it.

Funny thing about some relationships, when there is a break, you can take time to
think about how it was. And whether or not you learned things about yourself, and if you feel better without them in your life. And what is it you learned?

I have learned a lot, and am in a process now of clearing it out, raising a frequency within myself to move it out, feeling gratitude for the whole situation.

As to re-establish some kind of connection with the other person, I wish her well, but am seeing us separate, apart for now. She is doing well, and that is how I view her.

I know the guides would like me to continue this with other people, but first there are some things I will do to expand my own emotional and communtication skills. I have found I am needing some strengthing in some areas when it comes to certain topics.

This is a hard level in life, learning to excercise the free will we have been given, kind of scary. Easier to let other people set up the scenario for you, huh? But ascension is not going to happen that way.

Living in the Heart is like doing regular exercise daily, keep doing it with mindfulness, and someday it may open up whole new dimension for all of us.

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