Universal Heart Song

   This last month was tough.  I lost my mother.  My father lost his wife of 63 years.  My siblings lost their mother.  We all lost her, and it will always be a sad event.    She had a long hard year, full of what I am calling horrible badly done, and disjointed "White Man Medicine".    So many pharmaceuticals, given by different doctors. with no coordination,  no conversions between the various physicians, and several stays in the local hospital where her primary care physician was not even allowed to come see her. Only what they call Hospitalists.    And a different one each time.  A hell of a way to treat a frail almost 90 year old diabetic who had had a stroke.  Whose primary care physician thought it was fine to prescribe an off label use for an anti-depressant.  To calm down her bladder.  As she was having a huge issue with urgency, but often didn't have to go.  Or then it would be a...

      So this last few weeks have been just full of anticipated events.        More than enough with all the added media frenzy to scare the pants off of anyone.        I am also pretty burnt out with the upcoming elections, and suppose many in this country are also.  Unless they are so hooked into a particular party and invested in outcomes.         Well so be it.  To each their own.  But to anyone else who is feeling the energetic vacillations of the fear over Ebola, and the whole Issal stuff, just know this.  It  was expected.          We are at that particular point in time where you must make a concious choice between letting the paranoia overtake you, or get your house in order on a energetic level.          I am unlucky enough to have pulled a mus...

So this time around, instead of just blobbing on, thought I would share something more fun. On youtube, I describe myself as an old broad singing in her kitchen. The world is still in the wobble tilt phase, but let's hope it will self right its self.  I am still puttering on the homestead, watching the animals,  checking out the acorn crop, and the blackberries. My concerns are that due to the drought we have had here, and long hot dry days since spring, we can be looking to the animals to give us some hints of what is to come. Not sure yet,  but the squirrels around the canyon are frantic with collecting acorns.                                                   Will keep an eye out for now,  enjoy autumn and try not ...

     I think this is a topic that is both basic and all over the map.  The guides tell me not to worry overall , just choose foods you are eating in their basic original form, and avoid as much as possible too much processed, none on a daily basis.     Which is a huge tangle right there.  So I suppose common sense has to prevail.     I am a omnivarian, with a bit of bread tossed in.  Veggies, meat, eggs, whole grains, fruit. Try to keep it as organic as possible but choke on the prices at times.  Like my own fruits and veggies better.    So I believe in eating with the seasons.  Due to the fact, plums and grapes in January, are from countries that most likely have no restrictions on toxic pesticides, etc.     I also think a little sweetness in life here and there is fine, just make it a treat, not a several times a day, every day habit.  And you can become addicted to ...

          I recently joined a study to detemine human dna movements around the planet.            Partly to try and see if any kind of link with my own patenal grandmother would turn up. It didn't.  What I came to understand is tracking this sort of dna study is done through either the mothers ancestry,if you are a female.  Or the fathers ancestry if you are a male.             So we got my mothers, and I had my brother  contribute his cheek swab so we could look at my fathers dna.           The surprise was the amount of Neanderthal on both sides.  And another less know extinct hominid called the Denisovans.            This was on my mothers side.  Through her Scandanavian heritage.  From people who migra...

       After the buildup and let down after 2012, I will get these bits & pieces  from the guides on why humanity seems to be stalling out.       Usually  when I am doing mundane tasks and am in the very open state, I hear from them.  Today I was folding clothes and putting them away.      Surprised?  No meditating and clearing and calming the mind?       Actually many mindless tasks work for me just like meditation.  I do meditate, also have taught my mind to be open when I am in a safe setting like home and recieve what comes. Relaxed and repeating motions brings this easily.         Not all of it is profound,  but at times there are interesting things.         So Van, my main guide says for the rest of this year we will see increasing unrest.  A balance has not been achieved between light and the dark.  As so many he...

     The last post before this is for me another start of and a working through an emotional clearing, and the process is harder for family members than any other people in your life.      Part of the catalyst for doing this one was my mother's illness recently which put her in the hospital.  She has been a long time diabetic, and also a poorly managed diabetic.      To add to the difficulty is my fathers needing to be in control, despite all the ideas that have been suggested to him to help make their lives easier.  They want to stay in their home, but it has become obvious my mother's health is deteriorating rapidly.      This last time around, he became very nasty to some of us over our concerns about the primary care physcians ability to provide a accurate care regimen for our mother.  This despite the prognosis of a admitting hospital doctor and a urologist. ...

       Often I see things that go on with parents and children, and can relate.          Parenting is a hard thing now a days.  Kids do stuff, they learn from their parents what they can and can't do.  Starting from the moment they start moving on their own.          It's a process, and believe me, children are resilent.  Mom's yell at them, Dad's yell at them, most of it they will never remember.  I do and I don't from my childhood. Not most of it, and I have a really good memory, probably to about 2nd grade age, though it is spotty, just really the striking things stand out.           However,  I was reminded once again of something I do not remember. Not that long ago. By my father.           From the time I was a toddling baby, in ...

       Some of the violence lately seems to be isolated incidents at first.  But I am pretty sure that if there were more in depth investagations they would find commonality between all of the persons who seem to choose to  use violence in this manner.        The methods of making a person into a murderer consists of what I said before, no matter how you want to call it, brainwashing.  Can even be on the internet.  But the main intent is make these people into people with a them vs. us, or in single selected cases, me against them. "Them" being every one who seems to have more than the person who does the shooting, or are involved in activities the shooter has issues with. No matter how seemly normal they look, they have been shaped into a terrorist.         I suppose this may not make sense now, but down the road it will.       ...

            Things will start to shift some more starting with in the next day or so.              The weather will continue to go from one extreme to another and shift this phenomena      across the world.            But be on the watch out for groups of people going into behaviors of extreme and erractic     outbursts.         This will occur here in this country.  Over things that the ideology of said groups cannot seem to accept.  Even though the majority of people find they really can accept and live with it. Humanity is changing.  It is part of the collective subconcious knowing.        So there will be demonstrations, violence, and well, ugliness.  In increase.  T...

   I have reviewing my posts the past three years.  Seems like I have gone over many things as far as what you can do to raise your frequency.  All the advice on doing emotional clearing, taking a very deep look at our relationships, learning to avoid constant train wrecks, or car wrecks as I interchanged from one to the other.  Doing energy exercises to help strengthen and clear your energy field, keeping the heart on a loving frequency.     I fully admit to being as human and vulnerable to the same feelings as everyone else.  That is what I am here to learn.  Being a human, but a human who keeps being a work in progress. And learning to open your mind to all of reality.  Which is more than what most people want to see or deal with.      People create their own version of reality, some people just poo poo every thing, and they stay set with their own limitations, skeptics forever.  It is almost comic...

              I think with all  the sad images and trauma of life that comes at all human beings, so many have closed down their hearts and the emotional content that the heart contains.                The heart is the seat of emotions, not the brain.  Regardless of what the folks with the big degrees and medical -pyschological expertise may tell us.                 The term commonly used, heartsick comes to mind.  When something really sad happens, people often use this term. And it can become very real, as the heart will become sick.  Heart attacks are one thing I can think of off the top of head.                  The actual color of the heart chakra is emerald...

  It is a Sunday, I am in a recliner, taking a break, laptop in my lap, and two little dogs squeezing in  tight.  So this has to be a slow write, already my elbows are jammed in trying to avoid the dogs. And to boot the battery is low.    Upon reviewing the blog archive's, I am reminded that I have talked the emotional clearing thing in a circle , and what is coming up now is the last remnants of pieces I had held on to.    This year with things on the move, weather, polarities, and humanity, things will still come around again.  The worst of our past, our fears, our sufferings as a race of humans.     Facebook is interesting, on it I see all kinds of crying out about the things I think we are all afraid will re-surface to block us in our growth as star being.  I hardly think too many people see it that way when they are on Facebook, but it is there all the same.      Slavery, discrimination, viole...